back to basics

Came up to Boston for the weekend, to see one of my closest friends and his wife and to squeeze in a quick investor meeting. And, on the train up Friday afternoon, I started to write a post about the trip that also obliquely referenced my date the night before. What I started writing was short on detail because, I told myself, I didn’t want to kiss and tell. But, in fact, it was short on detail because I was worried what my date would think if I wrote what I was really thinking, and worried what other people would think if I wrote what I was really thinking.

Realizing that’s a long, long way from the sort of damn-the-torpedoes full-speed-ahead radical honesty I’ve been trying to stumble my way through for the last year, I instead – wisely or not – scrapped that post and decided to just lay it on the line. So:

I went on a drinks date Thursday evening that was good enough to become a breakfast date Friday morning and good enough to justify me totally violating my usual rule for minimum time between first and second dates by asking to see her again this Monday night. I’ve spent the weekend sort of secretly terrified that she’s going to cancel the second date, which, on the one hand, I’m pretty sure she isn’t, but, on the other, probably means I’m far more interested than my commitment-phobic conscious brain would otherwise acknowledge. And while, obviously, after just one date it’s impossible to say where this might go, it’s the first date I’ve been on for a while where I’m at least exceedingly excited to find out.